GOALS
STARTED 1991
I
called these goals but they are actually my program.
Hope
you enjoy reading them.
The
place you start is the place you end up.
Tue
01/18/94 10:11 THANK GOD, BREATHE DEEP & SMILE
11/25/94
LOVE ONE ANOTHER, AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE YOURSELF, (BE SURE YOU LOVE YOURSELF)
11/07/2008
PICTURE ALL THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE AND FOCUS INDIVIDUALLY ON THAT LOVE FOR 10 - ?
SECONDS.
06/30/94
START THE DAY LOOKING AT THE THINGS I'VE DONE AND DO RIGHT.
01/18/94
A LEADER LOOKS FROM THE TREE TOPS TO SEE WHICH DIRECTION TO GO.
LIFE
IS A PATH HOW YOU HANDLE THE CHALLENGES ALONG THE WAY DETERMINES WHERE YOU END
UP IN THE END.. (RS 11/02/93)
THE
FUTURE CREATES THE PRESENT THROUGH THE BACK GROUND OF THE PAST.
REALIZE
I AM CAUGHT UP. 10/29/99
READ
SCRIPTURE, PRAY
BREATH,
MEDITATE, CONNECT WITH NATURE
MORNING
POWER QUESTIONS. WHAT AM I EXCITED ABOUT, PROUD OF, GRATEFUL FOR, ENJOYING MOST,
COMMITTED TO, WHO DO I LOVE AND WHO LOVES ME. WHAT CAN I DO TODAY TO MAKE THINGS
GREAT
FOCUS
ON 5 F'S FAITH, FAMILY, FRIENDS, FITNESS, & FINANCES IN THAT ORDER.
CHANGE
WHAT'S NOT WORKING
EVERY
DAY IN EVERY WAY I'M GETTING BETTER AND BETTER
ACCESS
MY RIGHT BRAIN
PRESS
DECADES INTO DAYS
PUT
TIME LIMIT ON GOALS
GET
RID OF MY CERTAINTY AND EXPLORE TOTALLY NEW POSSIBILITIES.
SUCCESS
IS THE CONSISTENT INCREASE IN THE QUALITY OF LIFE. (without
WE
ARE CREATORS OF THOUGHT.
HAPPILY
ACHIEVE INSTEAD OF ACHIEVE TO BE HAPPY. 10/25/99
MY
LIST OF MOVING TOWARDS VALUES IN ORDER OF PRIORITY
USE
JESUS AS MY ROLL MODEL
CHEERFUL
(SMILE)
HAPPY
(CONTENT)
HEALTHY/IN
SHAPE, FIT
LOVING
GIVING
INTELLIGENT
PRACTICE:
CANI (CONSTANT AND NEVER-ENDING IMPROVEMENT)
FLEXIBLE
AT LEAST THREE BACKUP PLANS.
HONEST
HARMONY
WITH NATURE
PASSIONATE
BEING
THE BEST I CAN BE AT EVERYTHING I DO
CREATIVE
REFLECT
BACK ON YOUR LIFE TO SEE IF ITS GOING THE DIRECTION YOU WANT.
THINK
OF THE REASONS WHY I' AM HEAR. (WORSHIP THE LORD WITH THE TALENTS HES GIVEN
ME) 11/07/2008
LOVE
WILL OFFSET ANY PAINFUL EXPERIENCE. 09/2009
GOD
IS GUIDING ME TODAY
YOU
WILL BE HOW YOU SEE YOURSELF RS 01/25/96
PROGRAM
MYSELF
DWELLING
ON SHOULD OF'S & COULD OFS IS JUST A WASTE OF VALUABLE TIME. RS 1994
FEAR
IS THE PRELUDE TO MASSIVE CHANGE. RS 04/19/95
ALL
WE REALLY HAVE ARE OUR EXPERIENCES AND OUR THOUGHTS RS 06/01/94
1.
UNCOMFORTABLE: CHANGE YOUR STATE; CLARIFY WHAT YOU WANT, And TAKE IMMEDIATE
ACTION IN THE DIRECTION OF WHAT YOU WANT.
2.
FEAR: GET PREPARED
3.
HURT, CHANGE PERCEPTION
4.
ANGER, RULE VIOLATION, COMMUNICATE YOUR RULES
5.
FRUSTRATED, CHANGE APPROACH
6.
DISAPPOINTMENT, CHANGE EXPECTATION
7.
GUILT, VIOLATED STANDARD,
8. INADEQUATE, DO
SOMETHING TO GET BETTER AT IT. OR CHANGE PERCEPTION OR THE THING
YOUR DOING.
9.
OVERLOADED, SIGNAL, REEVALUATE, PRIORITIZE
THE
UNKNOWN IS MY FRIEND
DIRECT
MY RETICULAR ACTIVATING SYSTEM. (THE VIDEO CAMERA BETWEEN MY EARS)
HAVE A HOME IN A WARM CLIMATE NEXT TO THE OCEAN, OR A MOUNTAIN WITH A LAKE AND STREAM. OR AN ISLAND IN THE PACIFIC.
KEEP
JOURNAL GOING
LIVE
AS IF THERE WERE NO TOMORROW BUT PLAN LIKE THERE IS.
GODS
WEALTH IS CIRCULATING IN MY LIFE HIS WEALTH FLOWS TO ME IN
SPEND
AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE WITH MY BEAUTIFUL FAMILY
HELP
MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE
CONNECT
MENTALLY WITH MY BODY FROM TOES TO HEAD
MENTALLY
& PHYSICALLY CLEANSE MY BODY OF DISEASE
REALIZE
I AM PART OF A PERFECT UNIVERSE, JUST BE.
WE
ARE SPIRITS WITH FORM
REFLECT
BACK WHAT A PERSON FEELS (CONNECT WITH THEM, UNDERSTAND THEM.)
IMAGINE
A POSITIVE FLOW AROUND ME, TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND FEEL GODS LOVE.
THINK
OF AN ELECTRICAL FORCE SURROUNDING MY BODY AND TURNING IT INTO POSITIVE FLOW.
WHAT
IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO DO IN MY LIFE AT THIS TIME?
THERE
IS NO REALITY EXCEPT THE ONE CONTAINED WITHIN ME, THAT IS WHY SO MANY PEOPLE
LIVE SUCH AN UNREAL LIFE, THEY TAKE THE IMAGES OUTSIDE THEMSELVES FOR REALITY
AND NEVER ALLOW THE WORLD WITHIN TO ASSERT ITSELF. MIRACLES AND REAL MAGIC ARE
INSIDE YOU. GO THERE, CREATE THE MAGIC THAT YOU SEEK IN YOUR LIFE, FIRST IN YOUR
HEART, THEN IN YOUR INTENTIONS, AND YOU WILL CREATE THE ONLY REALITY THAT IS
IMPORTANT TO YOU, THE ONE THAT YOU EXPERIENCE, AND YOU'LL NEVER NEED SOMEONE
ELSE TO ASSESS IT FOR YOU.
LOOK
AT THINGS NOT AS THEY ARE BUT AS THEY CAN BE. VISUALIZATION ADDS VALUE TO
EVERYTHING. VISUALIZE THE FUTURE DON'T GE STUCK IN THE PAST OR PRESENT.
OF
MY LONG-RANGE AND INTERMEDIATE HIGH PRIORITY GOALS WHICH SHOULD I FOCUS ON
TODAY.
WHICH
PROJECTS WILL GIVE THE HIGHEST RETURN FOR TIME INVESTED.
WHICH
PROJECTS WILL BE THE GREATEST THREAT TO MY SURVIVAL OR THAT OF MY COMPANY &
OR FUTURE IF I DON'T DO THEM.
WHICH
PROJECTS WOULD PLEASE GOD?
WHAT
HAS NOT BEEN CONSIDERED YET THAT WILL HELP YIELD LONG TERM SIGNIFICANT RESULTS.
HOW
WILL WHAT I DO TODAY AFFECT MY LIFE 5, 10, 25, 50 YEARS FROM
DECISION
MAKING IS PRIORITY CLARIFICATION
HOW
CAN I ADD MORE VALUE
SELL
THE WANT THEN THE NEED THEN THE PRODUCT
IF I
CONTINUE DOWN MY PRESENT PATH WHAT WILL THE
WHAT
COULD MAKE MY LIFE BETTER ????? (DAILY)
WHAT
IS THE SMARTEST THING TO BE DOING NOW AND ENJOY THE
AS
ONE THINKETH IN HIS HEART, SO IS HE.
ENJOY
LIFE
DO
BREATHING EXERCISE, INHALE 7 HOLD 28 EXHALE 14 10 TIMES 2-3 TIMES DAILY
GREAT
PEOPLE ARE THOSE WHO SEE THAT THOUGHTS RULE THE WORLD.
SET
BIG GOALS THEN WORK ON THEM BY THE INCH IT'S A SYNCH BY THE
WHAT
IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO BE DOING NOW? ASK THIS THREE TO FOUR TIMES DAILY
GIVE
MYSELF PIECE OF MIND DAILY AND FEEL GODS LOVE
WHAT'S
MY LIFE'S GOALS-MOST IMPORTANT TO LEAST IMPORTANT
WHEN
CHALLENGES COME UP, ASK MYSELF:
2. WHAT'S
NOT PERFECT YET
3.
WHAT AM I NO LONGER WILLING TO DO, TO HAVE THINGS THE WAY
4.
WHAT AM I WILLING TO DO, TO HAVE THINGS THE WAY THAT I WANT
5.
HOW CAN I GET THE JOB DONE AND ENJOY THE PROCESS?
ANCHOR
WAKING UP TO FEELING ANXIOUS TO GO.
BUILD A SOLAR/BATTERY POWERED FLYING MACHINE
THINK
OF SOMETHING THAT WILL HELP BRING THE WORLD BACK TO
1. We need to realize that we are massively overpopulated. We claim to be the smartest animal but don't have enough sense to limit our own numbers.
DON'T
CRITICIZE
GIVE
APPRECIATION
AROUSE
IN THE OTHER PERSON AN EAGER WANT.
INSPIRE
MYSELF
INSPIRE
MY FAMILY
USE
THE POWER OF SUGGESTION
THINK
BIG....
LOOK
AT MY BODY AS A MY VEHICLE
DON'T
QUIT UNTIL I'VE RAN OUT OF THINGS THAT DIDN'T WORK
THINK
ABOUT HOW TO TAKE CARE OF THE WORLD.
WHAT
ARE SOME BETTER QUESTIONS TO ASK MYSELF. (WHAT COULD I DO TODAY TO MAKE THIS ONE
OF THE GREATEST DAYS OF MY LIFE?)
QUESTIONS ARE THE ANSWER
HOW
CAN I TAKE THE WORLD TO A NEW LEVEL.
REMEMBER
MY ULTIMATE GOAL (BE HAPPY, BE CONTENT)
LOVE
THY NEIGHBOR AS THYSELF
WHEN
NEW SITUATIONS OCCUR ASK MYSELF WHAT DOES THIS MEAN AND
ASK
MYSELF A DIFFERENT QUESTION
VENTURE
INTO OUTER SPACE
SUGGEST
SPACE EXPLORATION TO MY KIDS.
LIVE
AN EXTRAORDINARY LIFE
AT
THE TIME MY STRONGEST DESIRE IS TO TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO TAKE
PEOPLE
SHOULD NOT HAVE BOUNDARIES IN THEIR MINDS.
DON'T
SOFTEN MY GOALS
IF
YOU WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU, YOU ARE
WHAT
YOU THINK OF ME IS NONE OF MY BUSINESS. WHEN YOU MAKE THIS A HABIT IT WILL SET
YOU FREE.
IF I
HAD UNLIMITED TIME
I
WOULD CONTINUALLY BUILD MY MIND AND BODY
I WOULD CONNECT WITH MY CREATOR
RELAX
AND ENJOY LIFE
I
WOULD HAVE TIME TO THINK OF HOW TO HELP PEOPLE
FOCUS
ON HOW IVE BEEN BLESSED EACH DAY
PROGRAM
MYSELF TO CONTINUALLY LEARN MORE.
IF I
HAD UNLIMITED TALENT
TEACH
PEOPLE HOW TO BECOME MORE POWERFUL
I
WOULD ENJOY COMPETING IN ALL SORTS OF DIFFERENT EVENTS
LEARN
MARTIAL ARTS
IF I
HAD UNLIMITED MONEY
LIVE
IN A WARMER CLIMATE
HAVE
A PERSONAL FLYING MACHINE FOR MYSELF
& MY FAMILY
OWN
A SAILING YACHT.
HELP
TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO LIVE IN HARMONY WITH NATURE
TEACH
PEOPLE TO WANT TO CHANGE INSTEAD OF FEAR IT.
LIVE
ON AN ISLAND IN THE PACIFIC WITH ONLY PEOPLE I LOVE
TRAVEL
ABROAD
LIST
OF REWARDS FOR CONDITIONING MYSELF
peace
of mind
breath
deep & smile
HOW
BAD WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE FIT AND BALANCED?
LOOK
INTO THE FUTURE TO SEE WHO I WANT TO BE THEN BRING THAT PERSON BACK TO TODAY AND
STEP INTO THAT PERSON AND CONDITION MYSELF TO BE THAT PERSON ALL OF THE TIME.
HAVE
FREQUENT OVERWHELMING EPISODES OF APPRECIATION
WHAT
DO I WANT OUT OF MY LIFE AT THE END AND WHAT DO I DO EVERY
ACTION
CURES FEAR, WHAT KIND OF ACTION CAN I TAKE TO CONQUER MY FEAR?
IF
YOU SET YOUR OWN RULES YOU CAN WIN THE GAME.
INFORMATION
X FOCUS = PERSONAL REALITY
LEFT
BRAIN ORGANIZES RIGHT BRAIN FEELS THEY NEED TO BE BALANCED
LOOK AT OTHER PEOPLE AS CONNECTED SPIRITS
WHAT
ARE THINGS THAT ARE IMPOSSIBLE NOW BUT IF THEY WERE
TRY SOMETHING
NEW EVERYDAY.
SET
YOUR STANDARDS AND GOALS ON WHAT'S IMPORTANT TO YOU. CONDITION THEM IN.
READ AND FEEL THEM FOR AT LEAST 30 DAY'S TO CONDITION THEM IN YOUR SUB
CONSCIENCE. TRAIN YOURSELF USING PAIN AND PLEASURE.
TEACH
& YOU WILL LEARN.
THE
BEST WAY TO PREDICT THE FUTURE IS TO CREATE IT YOURSELF
I
SEE THE WORLD THE WAY I THINK IT SHOULD BE, RATHER THEN THE
EVERYONE
HAS A DIFFERENT LEVEL OF REALISTIC.
HAVE
MY FAMILY WORK TOGETHER AS A TEAM.
BE A
GIVER BEFORE YOU HAVE IT.
MATTHEW
18 v18and19
IF 2
OF YOU ON EARTH AGREE ABOUT ANYTHING YOU ASK FOR, IT WILL BE DONE BY MY FATHER
IN HEAVEN. FOR WHEN 2 OR 3 COME TOGETHER IN MY NAME THERE AM I WITH THEM.
STEP
BACK DAILY AND LOOK AT WHAT I'M DOING FROM GODS POINT OF
ENJOY
THE FEELING OF UNCERTAINTY. THE UNKNOWN IS MY FRIEND
RUN
MR. DEFEAT OUT OF MY MIND AND KEEP MR. TRIUMPH.
1.
REINVENT (VISION)
2.
REENGINEER
3.
REASSURE
4.
RETRAIN
5.
REVITALIZE
FEEL
WITH IMAGES WITHOUT TRYING TO DESCRIBE IT WITH WORDS.
WHEN
SEARCHING FOR A WORD TO DESCRIBE HOW YOU FEEL YOU ARE
PEOPLE
ARE MULTI DIMENSIONAL.
GOD
WILL PROVIDE IN THE RIGHT AMOUNTS, LEARN TO ACCEPT IT.
PROGRAM
YOUR DAY DREAMS TO GET YOU WHERE YOU WANT TO GO.
HOW
DO YOU FEEL WHEN YOU DAYDREAM? PRACTICE IT.
DECIDE
TO TAKE RISKS, EVALUATE THE OPTIONS TO GET THE RESULTS I WANT. CHOOSE THE BEST
OPTION GO FOR IT ALL OUT, LEARN FROM THE RESULTS GOOD OR BAD, KEEP MY EYES OPEN
AFTER ITS COMPLETED.
IF I
WERE AN INDIAN WHAT WOULD I BE DOING TODAY
TO
BECOME SUCCESSFUL IN ANYTHING FOCUS YOUR MIND LIKE A LASER BEAM
WHAT
YOU FOCUS ON EXPANDS
AVERAGE
PERSONS STRONGEST DESIRES:
REINCARNATION
ROMANCE
REWARD
RECOGNITION
THE
UNIVERSE IS MY EXTENDED BODY.
MY
STRONGEST DESIRE IS TO REMAIN CONSISTENT WITH HOW I DEFINE MYSELF
WHAT'S
THE REASON FOR MY BEING
WHEN
GOALS ARE WRITTEN THEY GO FROM THOUGHT TO FORM 10/31/91RS
HAVE
MY KIDS DRIVE THEMSELVES; I HAVE NO RIGHT TO DRIVE THEM. RS 01/04/96
COLOSSIANS
3 SET YOUR MIND ON THINGS ABOVE, NOT ON EARTHLY THINGS
THE
SUREST WAY TO STAY UNDEFEATED IS TO NOT PLAY THE GAME (RS 4/9/98)
SEW
A THOUGHT REAP AN ACTION
SEW
AN ACTION REAP A HABIT
SEW
A HABIT REAP A CHARACTER
SEW
A CHARACTER REAP YOUR DESTINY
The
Universe is perfect, our body is perfect, then mans thoughts can be the only
things not perfect, that is why we have problems, they can only come from our
mind, then we see things imperfect.
Ask
my heart not my brain.
Life
is not measured by how many breaths you take but how many you take away
"You'll
never have all the information you need to make a decision. If you did, it would
be a foregone conclusion, not a decision.")
After
all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
10
DAILY EMOTIONS TO EXPERIENCE
LOVE
& WARMTH
APPRECIATIVE
& GRATEFUL
CURIOSITY
GET
EXCITED & PASSIONATE (DECIDE TO FEEL IT)
DETERMINATION
FLEXIBILITY
CONFIDENCE
(PRACTICE IT)
CHEERFUL
FEEL
HEALTHY (PRACTICE IT)
SENSE
OF CONTRIBUTION
MY 8
YR OLD SON MICHAELS QUOTE: IF NOBODY WAS BAD, IT WOULD BE GOOD. 5/8/99
The
brain gives you a few seconds after an idea to act on it, make this your hearts
choice. (rs 2007)
Have
you ever thought that maybe your living in the wrong state of mind?
"Living
within my means NOW requires providing for my means in the FUTURE."
Failure
is the chance to begin again more intelligently.
How
can I go to the next level?
"
Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want.
But the realization of how much you already have."
"
The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity.
The optimist sees opportunity in every difficulty. "
"
Sometimes life has a way of putting us on our backs,
In order to force us to look up."
Just
remember stay focused on the long term, were all going to end
up in one place or another.
Triumph
is the spice of life, loss is the lesson. RS 10/12/00
WE
LEARN SO MUCH AND SO LITTLE FROM OUR PARENTS RS 01/28/2000
"
I would rather live my life as if there is a God
And
die to find out there isn't,
Than
live my life as if there isn't
And
die to find out there is."
Living in love in the moment
(That's as good as it gets) rs 091311
As I awake I take all my past experiences and download the person getting out of
bed. Sometimes it helps to reformat the hard drive.
Dying is a reminder of life 12/2011
It's important throughout the day to STOP and choose your state of mind.
Make it a habit to feel Gods Love daily
The harder life gets the more important love gets. RS 011012
People give their life for their focus
Don't claim to be the smartest person just try and become it. rs 012012
I've come to realize that since our cells are living, feeling, thinking, beings, and that we pass them on to our children. We pass on all our experiences, beliefs, feelings, thoughts, habits, etc. And since we are all connected to each other through Adam and Eve we have
EVERY experience, thought emotion, feeling etc inside us. We do all have a choice, conscious or not, of what to focus on. I suggest we all take time in a day to preferably get in the sun in quiet nature, if possible on the ground and stop our thoughts and questions, and just feel Gods Love. Focus on being connected. If you make this a regular daily habit I think you will find that things will become very clear. It will become a
reprioritize time. Remember to use your heart not your head.
In this predicted final year of 2012 lets unite and make it the end of mans destruction and change the world completely. rs 020212
Where
to Now?
It's
clear that the laws of nature have been disrupted by the meddling of the human
being.
Let
me explain:
Others have always considered me competitive, in sports and business. I was married at 19, had my first child at 20. Received $600 from my parents for a wedding gift and the rest was up to my wife Connie and I. Connie was in her sophomore year in college when our first child (David) arrived. Interest rates were at 18% and times were tough. I started welding to provide an income. Became the best welder in the plant in a few years. Had a unique welding helmet, obtained the rights to manufacture it and started competing in mans business world. By this time we had three beautiful kids. Connie was teaching school and we were doing our best to fit into mans competitive world. Every month or so, I would leave my family for a week at a time and travel across the US, Canada, and Mexico doing trade shows. I started making a pretty good income. I also competed in sports playing softball. There I met Larry Stutheit. Larry loved the outdoors as much as I did and asked me to go with him and four others to the Quietco Park in Canada, just north of Ely MN. Quetico is a protected, pristine wilderness retreat of international acclaim west of Lake Superior on the Canada-U.S. border. Canada protects this area from mans destruction, they only allow a certain number of people to visit yearly, they only allow man powered boats (no combustion engines) man is not allowed to build there, planes are not allowed to fly within 20,000 feet. It is considered pristine wilderness. It sounded like a great time, so I decided to go. We picked up our gear and headed for the wilderness. The first day we were all excited to get there and start catching fish. We had a competition to see who could catch the most and biggest fish. Trying to achieve and compete. So the first day was spent beating the water with fish lures to try to catch the most and biggest fish. That night someone caught the most and the biggest. The second day was a little more relaxed, and slowed down a bit, but the bet was still on. That night some won and some lost. The third day I was in a totally different state of mind and didn't care if I even caught a fish, I started to notice how beautiful, quiet, and harmonious everything was. My schedules, bills, and time limits of mans world were fading away, there was no, or very little stress. The calm and quiet around me was unmistakable. I remember getting out of the canoe and going into the woods by myself and just sitting there for quite some time. I can only try to describe with words, the feelings go far beyond our vocabulary.
After the evening meal on the fourth day I walked off by myself and as I lay on top of a huge boulder that was warmed by the days sun, I was looking out over a lake as smooth as glass, there were northern lights dancing in the sky, every now and then an occasional loon would add its spiritual song in the distance. I closed my eyes and felt a total connection with the environment and my creator; I was for the first time just being, not doing. I felt connected. Im not sure if you can truly understand it without experiencing it. I strongly suggest spending at least four or five days in the wilderness. It took that long for mans world to dissipate. It was a calm that I will never forget. I felt a oneness, a part off if you will. It brings tears to my eyes even now when I feel it. It's a place I go to in my mind, heart, & sole when I let mans world become too much.
I'd like you to contrast that feeling with this experience. I spent thirteen days in 1998 in downtown Chicago doing the IMTS trade show at the McCormick Place. Normal trade shows last three days, I had never done this show before and had no idea what to expect. It was an international trade show and I was the only person to man the booth. A person was to come along and help, but his plans changed at the last minute. I booked a room at the Hampton Inn located by Midway Airport, pretty much in downtown Chicago. I got there the day before and setup the booth and went back to the motel to get ready for the show. I remember opening the door of the Motel on day one. Bam! Right in front of me was twenty lanes of traffic, cars speeding by, the noise the hurry up chaos. Everywhere I looked there were cars, trucks, planes, buildings, concrete, even the air smelled of jet fuel from the planes overhead. There was no unraped nature to be seen. Man had completely recreated over Gods creations. The first day of the show I realized I was in over my head, it started early, with a crowd so large that I had people 8-10 deep in front of my booth all day, I could not leave the booth. I had no time to eat; I couldn't even go to the restroom. It was high pressure sales from start to finish. The lines of people never slowed. I remember the pain and stress afterward, my chest hurt, my body was buzzing. Again our vocabulary doesn't do it justice. I stopped at a Chinese restaurant on the way to the motel and ask for a quiet place in the corner, ordered some good food and tried to calm down. I spent a couple hours just sitting in shock. I got a little better prepared for the second day with some trail mix and juice. Went to the motel didn't sleep very well, got up early, worked out, ate a little and opened the door to the motel and Bam! There it was again, the cars, the noise the smell the concrete. I jumped in my van and headed for the show. Again, did not leave the booth from 8 am to 6 pm. The same stress the same pain and buzzing. It hurt. I hurt all over. It was even a little worse because of the drain it took on my body from the previous day. Same Chinese restaurant, same quiet corner. Went to the motel and got ready for the day three, day four, day five, day six. After six days of being in a total man made environment I started to feel very strange. It was making me crazy. Keep in mind I come from a small rural community. I remember thinking; if I were born in this environment and didn't know any different I would consider this normal. I probably wouldn't live very long. On the seventh day after the show I was getting tired of Chinese and decided to do something different. So I drove north on Lake Shore Drive and saw the Shedd Aquarium on one side and the Museum of Natural History on the other. I flipped a coin in my mind and went into the Museum. As I walked around for quite some time gazing at mans and Gods creations, I found myself in front of a glass enclosure of a large Boa Constrictor skeleton. It was an amazing site, all the rib bones precisely attached, I remember staring at it for quite awhile. But the part I remember most was the plaque in front that read: Through magnification mans creations get jagged and rough edged but Gods creations get more precise and perfect.
I thought about that for a while and agreed.
That explained the way I was feeling. We can create, but not at a perfect level.
The next few days of the show seemed easier, I was actually getting used to it.
I survived the remainder of the show and headed home and back to what I considered a normal routine.
Most mornings at my office I would set aside some time to relax and get ready for the day.
While reading my program, doing my breathing exercise, praying, going to the Quetico in my mind and connecting with my creator. I usually looked at a nature picture over my computer screen. For some odd reason one day I was facing an adjacent wall that has a large world map on it. As I was looking at the map I noticed how the continents were at one time together (I am sure you have heard this before) they looked like they were in a sense cracked and breaking up, then I asked myself what was it like before it started breaking apart? What was it like when it was perfect? Then this thought came to me. It was at one time the Garden of Eden, a perfect pure harmonious creation of God's love, he created this perfect ball of divine perfection, there existed no evil, just perfect harmony & love. (Take a moment and imagine)
What happened? When did all this suddenly change? It happened in the Garden of Eden. As the bible says, a serpent tempted Eve to bite the forbidden fruit, first with a question, then by saying she would become like God. Offering her the power of God if she would bite the apple. Most people say she was deceived by the devil, but I know she was not. We did get the power of God, What is God? Hes the creator. What other animal on the planet creates on a perfect environment? What animal is no longer in harmony with nature? What animal is killing the world? What do animals do when humans enter the forest? This is when the perfect world, the Garden of Eden started to breakup! The first thing Adam and Eve did was to create clothes to hide themselves. We allowed imperfection to enter the world. We let evil in. God is all about perfection, thats what offended God.
The earth is breaking up, the storms came the path of destruction was started; the disease of more began. The reason we have the problems we have now is because man has the power to create, but by no means at a perfect level. That is why after man changes Gods creation to his liking; it will have problems or imperfections! We are like a cancer on the earth, going off doing our own thing and jeopardizing the whole body. A tumor is nothing more than a bunch of rogue cells that go off and start their own body.
We are asking questions to our imperfect brains and getting an answer that is filtered by mans priorities. Greed, envy, lust, hatred, gluttony, pride, anger all of mans sins.
I try to read a couple
pages from the bible daily and kept noticing how God spoke to Mosses or God
spoke to Paul etc. I asked why isn't God speaking to someone now? Then I
realized that he is speaking to all of us now, through our hearts. Then it all
came together. When eve bit that apple we started using our imperfect brain to
make decisions, which resulted in imperfect answers. Our heart is what we should
be asking not our brain. God created this endless universe. We can't even come
close to imagining its vastness, and here we are trying to figure things out
with our little imperfect brain. We have a direct connection with the creator of
the universe who will speak to us through our heart. You will see that when you
use your heart instead of your head, you'll filter everything through love. It
may be just a small little muscle now, but if you condition yourself to use it,
it will change your life and this world.
Roland Shafer
Ph: 308 728 3113
rolshafer@frontiernet.net
http://comstocklodgebedandbreakfast.com/